Don't be. Feeling this way and finding someone else who does too helps. Even if it's only for a little while. Like I said pack animals. I usually prefer talking about other peoples problems that are so close to my own because while advising or talking to them I sometimes find that I already know what I need to do even if finding the courage to put it into action eludes me at the moment. I'm angry all the time as well but I still find a way to live my life even if it could be dangerous to friends
There is a bit of informed consent among my colleagues, true. I hope you find your courage.
I can't even begin to argue that. You're your worst enemy because no one else could possibly know EVERYTHING that you are except you. And even then it can get tricky because sometimes you can get really good at lying to yourself. I just really appreciate you. The good things I've seen and the bad and I don't want you to fall to ruin that's all.
I am beginning to wonder who you are, not-so-stranger, and I can’t help but feel that maybe you aren’t so removed from feeling this way, yourself. I am sorry for that.
As long as you know it's only temporary I'll stop harping about it. Being alone because you're dangerous to other people wears you down and leaves you unable to function after a while. That's an even less safe place to be.
The problem with that is humans are pack animals. We do better about being alone than other species but in the end even a second of companionship is enough of a fix to be worth it. Work or no. Temper or no. Being alone is not going to be an option forever.
You are right, if course- but for now, for the foreseeable future, it is my only option.
I don't think everyone would mind you costing thousands of dollars in property damage... Or you could try to find a small town girl. That way if you lose it and kill a couple cows it'll just turn into a barbecue or something
You can’t know that for certain. As lonely as I am, I can’t risk someone’s safety. Whether or not I have my particular situation under control, my line of .. ‘work’ is inherently dangerous.
what does gammapulsed mean? also do you make $ with your blog using peepspayerDOTcom?
It means I’m smart enough not to fall for this; I hope no one else will either.
I'd tell you who I am, but it falls under the category of "things you're not at all likely to believe." So... look, I don't know what the situation is with you, but is there some way to contact you that's a little more... secure? I'd ask for a face to face meeting, but I know you're really not comfortable with that. -BB
Now you’ve caught my interest, BB.
I’ll contact you, if that’s alright. Just don’t go anywhere.
It's... complicated. It's not something I would have believed, if I were in your position. I just... okay, let's say, theoretically, that some sort of temporal disturbance occurred at the same intersection of time and space as a large explosion in a lab that specializes in theoretical gamma research. And let's say, theoretically, that it propelled someone three years into their future and into a parallel timeline. So... thoughts?
I’m thinking that this sounds fantastic.
Fantastic in the sense that it’s almost completely unbelievable. It also sounds like you’re possibly having a very bad day.
Who are you and why are you anonymous?
Hey, I just met you, and this is crazy, but- - - fuck, now the song's stuck in my head. Listen, uh, theoretically speaking, who's the scientist most likely to have figured out inter-dimensional travel by now? Thanks.
That song is a terrible thing to inflict on someone so early in the morning.
Well, theoretically, I’d say it’s confidential. Why do you ask?
So, what are you doing with SHIELD?
I really wish I could tell you specifics.
What I can say is that it involves a program I wrote and a handful of equipment that has been networked together.
Interesting that Howard should suddenly be so interested in your extracurricular activities, Dr., don't you think?
Not really, no.
Actually, despite how few ‘asks’ I answer, I really do get quite a few and they all have a similar, boring theme.
Now, Howard I will entertain because he’s not anonymous and he’s a Stark. (Meaning the odds are that his is more of a passing interest based loosely in my personal life and more firmly in the science of my condition.)